Im sorry.

Seem like I have lost the shine.
Hello sunny ray, where are you?

Greenday

This time, I dreamed of Greenday!! The dream was awesome, but too bad I realised that it isnt real when I open my eyes. So Greenday happened to come to a common room and sing for us, it wasnt located in Malaysia, perhaps at other foreign region. I was with a group of people with different skins and races. Billie, Mike and Tre were right in front of me!! We were gathered in a semicircle and I was at the first row! I recognized the faces but Mike and Tre werent named Mike and Tre in my dream, they had different names while Billie is still Billie!! =D Skipped the part they sang cause I dont have a clue of them singing in my dream. We sort like hanging out in the room after their performance, most of the time Tre (whose name isnt Tre in the dream) was the one who keeps talking to me, and we had fun. Ok, so this is a little weird. HAHA! And I get to shout at Billie! Like we were friends than idol and fans. Everyone was having utter fun. Then, we reached an alley between 2 buildings, where there is a flight of staircase. Some were skating, some were running down the stairs and *puff* im awake! What I can remembered most is I hang out with Greenday! HAHAHAHA. Even though it wasnt real, but it was extremely interesting!!

Rawrr!

The family day

Here i am, suffering from eye sore after hours of Merlin. The story is getting no suprise but yet im still stucked with the series, planning to finish it off soon! Im going to rest my mind for a while before thinking of something else more interesting to do. Like knocking at someone's door again? Heh.

These two days, I've had good meals. Too good i suppose, which makes my stomach a little upset. Yesterday, went to try the korean food at DaoRae which is nearby my house, because some of my friends claimed that the food is really delicious. Well after that i consider that is not my favourite cup of tea. I felt my stomach was burning after I had the spicy and sour soup. Couldnt stand the way it is. Today, I didnt know what hit my parents' brain that they were suggesting that we had our lunch at Chilli's. So be it, I had to drag myself out from the bed after I had managed to put myself to sleep after the sun rise. Perhaps too much things running in and out in my mind when i was lying on my bed. The food is as good as usual, less salty compared to last time which was kind of annoying. It's been a while since I share good food with my family =)

How?

Im going to plant sunflower to cherish my misery,
this is what i've been wanting to do for months.

i want to forget and care less about the matter, just let it be.
whatever they do is what can makes them feel happy.
just shut up and enjoy your things because this is what you choose,
im going to mind my own business =]
Ok! this is just something extremely random. I feel like typing these out.
PEACE! .V

Green Monster

Again, the feeling reincarnate tonight, the Jealousy.

Jealous of something you are not,
jealous of something that you never own,
jealous of a person,
jealous of something you eyeing at in the screen right in front of you.

It makes you feel as empty as a bottle,
like a black hole started to absorb everything.
It makes you forget who you are,
and the every tiny pieces that is valuable around you.

It is deadly,
a poison that hidden beneath every cell in a body.

What i want for Christmas/Birthday

1) ...
2) ...
3) ...
4) ...

For more details for what i want for C or B? Feel please to ask me!! Once asked, considered you're going to get that for me. *evil laugh*

Wondering why im so free to update so many posts? That's because my Facebook applications are not working, same goes to Youtube due to failure of Flash Player. The computer is reformatted and I have to redownload it, but it is not working until i have finished typing this post.

Nevertheless

When i have decided not to check out on other people's life, because they make you feel that your life more miserable and pathetic. At the same time, I simply click 'facebook' and looking out for the latest updates. Sometimes i couldnt help but keep on clicking clicking away. The body doesnt listen to your mind at all.
One word, NOSY.

(x) wake up at 2pm
(x) a slice of cheese cake from the fridge
(x) a cup of awful coffee made by myself
(x) Merlin, the series
(x) an utterly upset stomach
(x) gloomy weather
(x) living room is lighted at 5pm.

Aint a saturday that i expected, perhaps more like a keepipoe weekday. By the way, I still couldnt managed to finish A Place Called Here.

Drama, drama

Just randomly update my blog with the things which are going on in my life. Been wanting to catch up with the series, so these are them.

The Vampire Diaries
This is recommended by Jon. Ok Jon, this is good =) Better than Twilight in a way because they are longer, Twilight is a movie that lasts for 2hours plus. Damon is good looking than his brother, Stefan. The bad guy with a drop of humanity in himself, nicee. Elena is acting more lively compared to Bella. Oh well...

The Adventure of Merlin
I really need to PPS this series because the one show in Hallmark is way too slow and the episods are driving me nuts. Hmmm Prince Authur sounds silly sometimes. I always like the movie relating to wizards and witches, dragons, trolls and elves. The swords, the spells, and the castles. Simply fascinating me!

Another gibberish

I wish i could just draw out my blog layout and it will automatically display as what i draw. I couldnt find one i like, and i couldnt make one i want which is driving me nuts immediately. I guess i have to learn how to make a template, because I COULDNT FIND ONE I LIKE! ARGH! I feel like killing my page. Ok i will start mending my page now. And hooray! the sky is turning cloudy and it's dark outside. So does my living room where i currently planting my ass at. I LOVE IT! Another thing that has bothering me for a long time, 'why we are not talking happily anymore?' I still remembered the December and January. Triple Aww.

Tell me that im wrong.

I will learn, I will not escape anymore. So much to think, so much to worry. "I dont know " is no longer the answer for any problem. I always see fun and sunshine in other person but not in myself, as i always see me as the dull and bitter hidden snake in the rock. Secretly, I want to live my own fantasy fairyland with green sky fulled of stars, fairy dust which makes your dream comes true, a world with no frustration and no competition. This is just another of mine to escape the reality, 'oh another escapee, what a dork'. Sheez, I suppose im have nothing better to do than whining in my blog. I always think and do the things which are opposing, I dont know what i want. Im in confusion all the time, and i hate making decision between two. I wish i could like in a space with red walls, photographs and sparkling lightings hanging on the wall. Blue sofa and a black little table in the middle. A small aquarium with colourful tiny fishes swimming around like they prefer their life to be this way. Bittersweet, what an interesting word which hit me so hardly in my mind. I will use this time to figure out myself and what i want. Im tired of wandering around without knowing my purpose to live. Let the time flows away like it is not precious at all. No i have never think of ending my life which is never gonna happen.
Frankly, I dont wish anyone read this. Goodbye!

Hello, Im new.

And so the BIG event just ended on last thursday, which Im truly glad. However, life has become not so interesting. I sleep at 5am, wake up at 12pm. Whenever I feel bored, I want to get out from the house. Getting out from house means I have to spend which sooner or later I got to declare 'bankruptcy'. Life of a slacker.
I need a new life!

Dreams

I dont know what happen to my brain because recently i keep having some weird and interesting dreams when i was asleep. As i could remember, there was a dream. I attended Josh's birthday party, his family happened to be vampire (must be too much of Twilight Saga). They doesnt look like the real life family, just some random strangers whom i have no impression at all. The peak of the dream was Josh's dad is actually very rich and he prepared 10 cakes for his birthday party. 6 colourful sponge cakes with different flavours according to the colours, purple blue orange yellow and more. Another 4 cakes were cheese cakes, they taste like heaven! the sponge cakes smell delightful and were the best sponge cakes i ever had, as if i really taste them. Haha. There were a lot of friends attending, imagine that we all could finished 10cakes? In fact, we only managed to finish 8. Afterthat, something happened in the neighbourhood. It was daylight, we cycled on the cement pathment besides the houses with metal fences surrounding each of them, the houses were aligned like the circumference of a jigsaw puzzle. In another minute, we cycled to the bottom of a mountain. Another dream which i just had this evening was about a not very horror murder in a hotel. In the dream, there were other people whom i cant remember their faces, 2 western female celebrities(named Mariah Carey and Beyonce but they dont look like themselves) , my brother and i. I didnt know how others were killed but 4 of us were locked inside a room. Im not sure who were the bad guys among us, but i suppose the celebrities were. BimBoomBang! They helped us to shoot the other people, perhaps they want us alive or whatever. There were 2 new guys appeared in the room. My brother and I had a fight with them, the disgusting part was one of the guy, his eyes were like fish's eyes dangling outside his eyelids after the fight and milky coloured liquid were dripping on the floor. He was walking nearer to me. One of the celebrities shot him? I wasnt sure whether he is dead? Well i wasnt holding any weapons during the whole dream but i survived. The murdering wasnt including any blood. And i happened to realise the place was at New Lane because after the whole mess, I was having my meal across the street with my brother and he told me that the 2 guys were shot dead.

Can you believe that? -.-

I brought Chip and Dale back,
they're on my study table,
watchin me study happily.

Hohoho!

It's December!
It always and has been the month I love.

The merry and warmth atmosphere, it is even better if our country have snow/winter. Because that will outspoke the warm within the cold. And present present present! Year end sales are all around, chilling with nice pretty cookies with hot chocolate/mocha. Cozy reading corner with lovely lighted christmas tree at the corner of the room, giving off the soft light that enchanted the room. A month which everyone is back home, and kids are having their holidays which they have been waiting long ever since the first day of the school. Last and not least, my birthday falls on this magical month. Perfecto!