MISSJENNYTEE!

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2011-12-04T22:44:00.002+08:00

2 more days to our 1st anniversary.

I dont know how we make it this far, i just hope that we will grow stronger and be a better partner for each other.

If and only if i can interpret my feeling into song and sing it to you.

About the fun im addicted to...

2011-11-22T15:27:00.004+08:00

Entertainment! is my way of escaping.

Coffee, movie, sports and more movies...

This is bad, Im overdoing them, Im addicted to them.

Im getting to dislike my studio assignments, they are no fun and Im stucked.

How can this be happening? I hate myself for being like this.

Oh please, can someone wake me up from this dream?

SIGH!

Listening to Love Will Take You.

It's Friday!

2011-11-11T14:54:00.003+08:00

It's friday and i dont feel enthusiastic about it. Im isolating myself in the room, to make me feel better and comfortable. Suddenly i have the craving for Starbucks Christmas's beverages! I cant wait to have THE Toffee Nut Frap and also try out the Cranberry white chocolate mocha frap. I need them to kill my blue! How i wish someone would just drive me to the shop and get it!

The I-have-been-waiting-for-ages Starbucks card is finally launched in Malaysia. Hopefully they will have awesome design of cards coming up soon!

Nothing but self hatred

2011-10-27T20:48:00.005+08:00

I've read from somewhere saying that University is the turning point of your life. Is my life going to turn bad at this point? Should i check within myself before i throw the blames at other people? Stupid me.

The things which can makes me feel better is making me feeling worse. Window shopping, seeing nice stuff, buying things, going out, spending money on transportation, money is getting lesser, less shopping, less going out, less happiness. Perhaps i should find a new recreation activity, a new hobby, a hobby which require no spending, a hobby which is beneficial for physical and mental health. I know im thinking this way because i have been sitting in the room for hours, raining makes me even gloomy. Favourite sport isnt helping me much because of the people. I dont know what to do?

Should i just pray and hope for things to get better?

I dont know

2011-10-27T20:33:00.001+08:00

Am i so easy to be forgotten?

Am i so easy to slip out from your mind?

Am i so unimpressivable?

Am i so little to be notice?

Am i just a passerby?

Am i just a nobody?

Am i just being too picky at who to mix with?

Am i just too independent?

Am i not trying hard to show myself?

Am i not trying hard to approach people?

Am i not trying hard to talk?

Am i not trying hard to be who i am?

Im seriously doubting my existence in this place...

The adventurous trip!

2011-10-27T00:53:00.002+08:00

Livingroom cafe! Almost lost in the way to the place.

Sometimes, there is certain place where GPS shows zero result.

Sometimes, photography angle makes a thing looks better than it is.

The new look!

2011-10-24T00:36:00.002+08:00

oh well, was trying out the new template and found out this one is nice, hence give it a try. still having problem trying to set the title photo into center. anyway, just a quick update to relight my blog!

tadaaaa!

Say...

2011-07-10T15:25:00.003+08:00

I can run to anywhere, but there will be no place for me to hide.

Because in the end of the day, You found me.

OK! My thing, It's getting lame.

If I wake up tomorrow, will you still be here?

2011-07-10T14:34:00.007+08:00

what is LIFE if there isn't any changes in the process? We have to keep changing to cope with present and future. Seeking for the reason to live, knowing the truth. Somehow everything has their own reason defines right or wrong, some say there is no right or wrong, because it depends on own perspective. Whatever i have learnt to live, changed abruptly. Changing is hard, but if the change is persistent, soon will become a habit. Habit leads to lifestyle. Is it true? Is it false? Nowadays it is difficult to differentiate. I have my stand to defy it. I am sorry that I did not try my best to be better.

I want to experience what other people experience, even if it is not right. I know this sounds immature but we are just human.

Why me? Why now?

You have the answers for my questions. I know the reason I have this thought because I still couldnt let go of it.

Im stucked on my own will, I am a short-sighted human being who cant look further into the future. I miss the happy-in-the-wrong-way me. Why I have become panic-stress-in-the-right-way? Because I shouldnt.

"Maybe you dont understand what im saying, because this is not meant for you."

Listening to Mike Posner's Please Dont Go.

Perfect for this afternoon.

Why cant I be honest?

2011-06-21T23:25:00.004+08:00

I am living in LIES.

I am lying all the times.

when things get unhappy, rocky and lonely, becoming fragile.

Everything seems changed.

Now what?!

2011-06-18T01:24:00.002+08:00

I really wish to give you all the troubles and blow it in front of you because i can.

But it's not the right way, and i shouldnt.

Perhaps i just write it out to make me feel better or make you worse.

The lump is boiling...

What?!

2011-06-18T01:01:00.000+08:00

Maybe something should be left unsaid...

Love?

2011-06-08T11:25:00.003+08:00

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12 Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13:4-13

The voice from my heart

2011-04-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

There are so many things which i need to express but i couldnt post to the public. Frustration and worries are overwhelming me, i havent feel so in such a long time. Just one call from home, to make the tsunami of mix feelings to intrude the coastal of my mind. Perhaps the way im doing this thing isnt the way God allows it to be, therefore, there will be the path of burning charcoal to walk across which is the challenge to accept or the price to pay. I do not feel homesick, because the place i am now feels more like home. I cant stop shaking my head when i see how people live their life. It's not that i lead a better life than anyone else, but im really thankful and grateful to have found the right guidance to live my life. I really want to help these people, and hopefully i can. I have to be convincing enough to convince other people and clear their doubts. God, please give me strength!

Picasa collage!

2011-03-26T16:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, went to Taman Sutera and had korean food. Finally get to try the OH-SO-FAMOUS tutti fruti. It may costs a fortune if you are not becareful.

Midnight, we had a suprise fire escape practice. Guess what? The practice seems so real compared to those during high school. Due to the fact that they actually used the smoke gas to pretend that there was fire. Fire engines, ambulances and polices were there as well, so can you imagine how 'grand' is the situation? The other block residents thought that we actually had a fire going on. In short, we learnt something new in the practice.

The kitty cat was posing!

This morning, we woke up at 5am to line up for the registration of hostel room for the next semester. It was like, queuing up to purchase famous singer's concert's ticket. Most of them brought their laptops to watch movie to kill time. As for me, I was half sleeping. Terrible! However, we managed to get our favourite rooms! Yipee!!

Something random to share. hehe!

the 300th post

2011-03-22T21:41:00.004+08:00

Tonight is the night, the night i reincarnate my blog.

It has been dead for 3 weeks!

So i was eating this dessert, this soup, this sugar liquid..

I feel so pathetic and sad. Can you imagine that, this is the best dessert I could have in Johor!!

I feel like crying. Im so desperate for these desserts!!

So yummy and delicious.

Irresistible ones!!

In Penang, I can find Mat Dou Yao.

In KL, I can find Snowflakes.

Arent these the best yums you ever have?

Jeez, Im crying out loud for yummy desserts =(

NEW

2011-03-01T16:58:00.004+08:00

I just realised that Starbucks have changed its logo, it looks uber plain. A bit disappointed but nevermind, it is the taste that matters. Well this is the first time i have a VENTI size of coffee based frap. I think i will be having some caffeine rush for the rest of my day. EEEEPS!

What The Heck

2011-02-22T16:28:00.007+08:00

I got myself 3 pairs of bling ear studs last weekend.

well that is not the point. The point is... I feel so lonely in a tuesday afternoon. I wonder where do everyone go, i mean i know the location of some of them, either in the library or their rooms. But i just not interested to drop by. These places are a wee miserable. Yeah Im typing here miserably too. I should have appreciate my free time to do my assignments. You know the time is golden, dont waste it. But the thing is... I dont want to do that at the moment, right now. I prefer to rant. Oh great. In fact I've just finished 2 episodes of Gossip Girl and read some pages of Shopaholic Takes Manhattan. You know to entertain myself and polish up my english, but I still feel Im pathetic. If and only if I have a car and a friend right now, I could easily drive to the nearest cafe to chill and talk our way out. Because public transport is not convenient at my place and the taxi fares is horrible to afford by myself. I mean to and fro, I can already buy myself a nice chilly Frap.

I almost laugh myself out when I think whats the meaning of FRIEND. There are many types of friendship in the university, or I can say in the society.

You met them in an event, they were being so friendly who greets you and pump you with a lot of information because it's an event, and they were promoting something. So there they were, speaking with you as thought you and them are already befriended. One day, you meet them on the street, they spare you a glance, you wonder 'do they remember me??' but both of you just pass by each other. Your heart sinks. They couldnt recognize you, they will not know you unless you walk up and RE-introduce yourself. (I bet most people do not do that, they shall let it pass. People like me. Hmm!) Oh we have met! But it would be awkward if they keep nodding and oh-ah-yes-how-are-you-good-i-will-see-you-around but what's real is that they dont remember you. You wouldnt know it, but you can feel it. YEEP!

The thing is I can almost recognize all the faces which I met, except some who really do look alike others, because they cover their hair with cloth/scarf. I know that they're not suppose to expose certain parts of their body, BUT i mean in fact hair is so crucial when it comes to recognize people. Faces might look alike when they are in round, oval, square shapes. Now i have improved in recognizing people (fyi i enjoy people watching) but still sucks with names. Maybe I should write them down, read them and not by just repeat verbally because 3 seconds later, I have forgotten the name utterly. Especially long name.

Resume to my friends topic, a group of people who are more or less only stuck together with one common purpose, or two. Class and assignments. How to keep these people together in one place? First you have to elect a person to organize a hang out and a meal gathering. Because this is about 12 people who are having different ideas and opinions, sometimes the plan just have to cancel due to the fact that some do not want to compromise each other, or the plan just divided into few parts (luckily this hasnt happen yet). After lots of discussions and considerations about where to go and what to eat, here comes the transportation problem. Ok transport, checked! Either by taxi or bus, thats them. What i want to say is that it is really hard to keep a group of people, which included some strong self perspective people, to go on. I realised that it is rare and difficult to meet people with same interests, same ideas who can compromise or i should say Flexible, as if you have met these people, they might possibly not around you. So appreciate friends around you.

I abhor being inconvenient by transportation, I mean i was lucky back in hometown or other places where I usually have my own vehicle or helpful friends who are willing to fetch and drop me. But in this place, I encounter the neck of the bottle. I cant go to the places I want whenever or wherever. I do not have personal transportation, while public transportation is the pain in the ass. I wanted to befriend with some friendly and sincere people who are willing to give me a hand whenever i need a hand. I thought it could be a favor to the helpless me. But I feel like I've been cheated in a way. Cheated by myself, cheated by my own thoughts. Certain people took me for granted, as if I havent notice that. Not the car issue because i do not own a car. They just use you for temporary company. And this reminds me that I should keep in touch with other precious friends of mine, maybe some of them would think i am that kind of person as well. Because if i can feel it this way about other, why not them? University life can be a dream or nightmare. Maybe it was my fault in the beginning of the whole senario because i have set the wrong initiative. I just wish to meet some real friends in the university, perhaps it would be better if I added ' I would love to befriend with those with something in common with me! ', thats all. Not some poker faces. This is a rough time. I have never feel so lonely before. But all of these shits have contribute so much to the spiritual relationship between God and I. Thank God, I still have Him by my side all the time.

I miss my family, I really miss my friends!!

And you too, yes you, if you are reading this.

First Visit to These Places

2011-02-19T21:14:00.001+08:00

A very pleasant and not so fruitful trip, together with my club members.

Happy Valentines Day

2011-02-14T20:51:00.003+08:00

This is how I celebrate it, never better.

One of my favourite places

2011-01-29T15:04:00.001+08:00

The road to nowhere...

A Night

2011-01-19T18:00:00.002+08:00

Faculty Night on last friday! It was pretty bad, Lily and I were the game MC for the night. Timing sucks and it did ruined my night. However, my night was saved by a happy photo taking session.

A trip to the Gallery

2011-01-14T11:34:00.003+08:00

This is our first studio trip to Art Gallery Johor on previous Monday, had fun looking at those amazing pieces of artworks which we were prohibited from taking photo of them.

The pavilion and garden,

I love to see the dead branches on tree, with a sense of sympathy.

hello flowers =)

last and not least, the building itself.

Cappuccino

2011-01-14T11:32:00.002+08:00

Something i've been longing to upload long time ago

I finally can enjoy Starbucks in Johor =)

Cute pics from Wallpaper

2011-01-05T22:53:00.002+08:00

Ammo collection

Search of the day

2011-01-05T22:47:00.001+08:00

Qasr al Sarab, Abu Dhabi

Park Guell

Ring-a-ling

2011-01-04T19:20:00.003+08:00

Cora Sheibani, interesting rings!

I shall post something short unless I have a long crap to write.

Entertaining myself

2011-01-04T19:16:00.001+08:00

Street snap!

Spotted at Ipoh town, nyahaha.

I look like a tourist, and my face is getting chubbier.

Bored-AM

2010-11-30T20:42:00.003+08:00

I was kind of free this afternoon, I watched Despicable Me in PPTV and paint my nails pink!

haha

Ching Ching Jeng Jeng

Wise

2010-11-29T04:20:00.005+08:00

Actually I think a lot at midnight, or early in the morning. You cant help it. You know the adrenaline just get lesser and your mind are thinking way out of the path. I kind of enjoy it, self torturing you may see it as but I reckon my english is fawesome at this time. I've received a compliment that my posts are so good that impress her/his mother. That really surprised me! Too bad we arent talking much nowadays. Yeah you know what? I even day dreaming about becoming a writer. I dont really fancy blogs which are like the report of your daily life. Not my type, perhaps different definition of blogging for everyone. Knock knock! If you wish to know the deeply me more, you can read my previous posts to find out. I am somebody who is trying to escape from the past into future.

Very very stupid

2010-11-29T04:12:00.004+08:00

Im a weakling! Shoot me!

I find myself rather amusing, to tell the readers about how depress and miserable i could get in my life. I know people always show how happy they are and let people like me, who always get emotional at midnight to be envy and jealous, thinking 'why my life is so sad while others always get drunk, style and so lux'. I should be thankful with every breath i take and be less bother about whatever happening around me. I should just forget people who have forgotten me and care for those who remembered me. I realised I used too much I until I've neglected YOU.

So THANK YOU for slapping me!

Lets have a good sleep

Very stupid

2010-11-29T04:00:00.001+08:00

I guess this is the best company you can find at 4 in the morning. It will not strain its brain or use its energy to think what to reply to you. It will absorb whatever you say silently, not making any noise or fudge against you. Simply delighting. I still think this is the best way to express whats beneath what I want to say.

I thought you could be my best friend, to understand what Im undergoing and giving me comfort. I thought finding somebody to rely on, to trust on is better, guess im wrong. It gives no better but worse, lowering my self esteem and self control. I've weaken myself. This is not i wish for, this is not i want it to be. Maybe i should miss the chance and then only i realised that i did the wrong decision. Regret and it's too late. Maybe i should punish myself in that way. Maybe it is a mistake. Maybe i shouldnt have. Im selfish and i dont want to explain.

MERRY BERRY

2010-11-22T16:38:00.005+08:00

Im kind of obsess with my shots at Pavilion,

therefore i've made this collage and set it as my laptop background.

Very merry christmas!

WONDERS

2010-11-21T14:50:00.002+08:00

EAT PRAY LOVE

Even though the movie is quite long, about 150 minutes long which i thought it would be another boring show, turned out it was quite a slow and inspirational one. It got me thinking. I couldnt express my thoughts out in words nor speak it out. Makes me wonder the reason im living in this world, and often drifted away by the flow and changes of surrounding unconsciously. I only doubt the reason and purpose of being alive after ive attended the SJ lesson. I still do not understand, and i guess i simply follow certain things blindly.

Searching for peace in the hectic suffocated daily life is a difficult thing, if and only if you think that is difficult. Sometimes i just carried away by the material world, so realistic and hedonistic. In fact, the soul inside your body is crying out loud miserably. When you're in need of help in figuring out the direction of life, you wonders where is your 'Guru'? I said He's just beside you. Maybe everyone is just different because they're unique in their own way.

Readers do not need to understand what ive written above.

..

2010-11-05T22:03:00.003+08:00

Sometimes being a normal human could be a trouble.

I do not understand human, me.

Complicated and messed up thoughts are running wild and trying to squeeze through a small door of my mind.

I do not know how to express it, they have no exit to escape and just explode in my mind and my heart aches like a knife stabs and slices through the surface again and again.

Pain is what i feel, the feeling can never leave.

It comes back once every while.

Things can never change back to what they used to be back then.

Live through the changes.

Who to look for when you are happy, sad, angry, or numb?

No this is not about you. Im saying about myself.

Certain situation just trigger another story to begin.

Do i let myself fall into this boiling pot?

Do you think that im trying to call it a sandstorm when some dust are floating on air?

Do you think i have a messed up mind?

.

2010-11-05T20:09:00.003+08:00

The wound is getting fragile.

Same stab at the same place over and over again.

The pain is just getting worse.

It never healed completely.

Killed in the maze, by a Bear.

I THINK I JUST LOSE MYSELF

2010-10-13T20:18:00.004+08:00

Im just like an ant.

Nervous and out of mind once the situation is out of order.

Yes i could find my way home, but it would takes miles and miles, hours and hours.

I feel myself weak, incapable and defeated.

Im doing things in not the right way,

saying the opposing,

noting the negative,

neglecting the priority,

dragging myself into the impossible state,

making myself miserable,

blinding myself,

couldnt see anything brighter and better,

too coward to take a step ahead,

slacking behind,

jealous of others happiness.

Who am i?

Where am i?

PENGKALAN BALAK, MELAKA

2010-10-12T19:01:00.003+08:00

RANDOM

2010-10-01T16:44:00.008+08:00

Three plant photos taken with my phone.

Not bad i reckon.

In fact, i was going to write something here but the uploading period taken was way long until i have lost my mood and urge to post anything.

till then.

A DAY TRIP TO SINGAPORE

2010-09-19T12:58:00.000+08:00

Decided to go to Singapore to watch SUO and tour a bit.

Thanks to Mr. Lim, YawChu and GuoJian for letting me to tag along.

Met up with Kevin, and he took us around Sengkang. I had MOS Cheeseburger, taste ordinary with a big chunk of tomato slice in between.

Took MRT to City Hall and walked to Bugis. Came across this very cute giant flip-flop! I acted like a tourist.

On the way, Singapore's National Library.

Inside Ilumi, the pretty captivating 3 storey high escalator. Got myself a Gloomy Bear file.

Along the way, saw this unique building. I think it is a pool snooker center. At the ground floor, there is KOI which sells bubble milk tea. The Q is terrifying long as you can see.

Toured a bit, then went back to the field to catch the final. It was fawesome! The players are too good, respect! In short, it is an interesting and siok sunday =)

SECRETS

2010-09-17T12:59:00.006+08:00

Im so stressful until I couldnt think properly, what's the priority and what's not.

I feel so irresponsible!

Jobs not done, all messed up.

Stupidity, childishness

I couldnt sleep well these nights, always awake at 5am.

I just wish that I have a fairygodmother.

the more i bother, the more i care,

the more i become who i am not.

the more i want, the more i need,

the more i become clueless.

the more i expect, the more i strive,

the more i get disappointment.

the more i understand, the more i know about myself,

the more doubts i find.

HOLIDAY

2010-09-12T18:14:00.003+08:00

Im having my favourites, white coffee and toasted bread with butter and sugar on it. YUMM! The room is dark, only lighten up with the light coming out from the laptop screen. It is a gloomy evening, feels like home alone but im not. It is just too quiet, just like the evening i love to spend at home. If Im awake at this time after taking a nap, i'll be having my mood swing definately. I need to be initiative to not feeling empty.

2010-09-12T18:12:00.000+08:00

If you doesnt believe in yourself, who is going to believe in you?

IDONTKNOWLAH

2010-09-06T11:07:00.003+08:00

Day 3, back at home.

Full of expectation before that, but decided not to. Because i knew that things will not be getting better, just worse when you have expectation. Im so tired and feeling pressure since i got back home. Not that kind of relieve or warmy friendly I sense. So whatever, how miserable that i actually miss my stupid life back in the stupid Johor! To be away from anything that i want and i long for. In short, I never feel any happier.

I ride my life.

OUT

2010-08-19T19:14:00.001+08:00

Hi, im bored. I have spent the last couple hours online, staring at the same Penan webpage and do nothing. I chatted with friends in msn and found out that im a SLACKER! I procrastinate a lot. I miss going out with friends, I need to do something to cheer me up! I hate Jusco!! I hate the food on my table!! And I hate it when im experiencing this!! Last and not least, i hate the fucking ants crawling on my table!!!!

Books and Stuff

2010-08-19T00:16:00.001+08:00

Feel like writing a post before heading to bed.

I accidentally peel off the skin and it hurts now. BAD HABIT COMING BACK AGAIN! This is what i think, I should think of what must do tomorrow before i sleep, so that i remember them the next day which i MUST carry out. I was thinking, (1)i must collect some materials for my design assignment, (2)look out for many info about Penan which we have to make it into a video, and (3)complete the site plan. Sleep is important to me, because it can wipe away depression and decrease anxiety. And also prevent me from thinking deeper and further about why this is happening to me, blablablah nonsense. No, im not having THAT moment now. Im just expressing, like releasing my leftover inspiration of the day into this post, so that it doesnt get wasted, because i tend to forget on the next day, which if i didnt write them out, they will be forgotten and disappear forever! Maybe. I used to think that, maybe one day i could be a writer! I could write books like Cecelia Ahern or Sophie Kinsella. fyi: I read their books, and they are my favourites. I used to read Enid Blyton when i was in high school, you know, borrow his book from the library every week and take home to read it. Then i tried to like Sabrina the Teenage Witch and the Goosebumps, but failed. I dislike them. Oh there was a book which i enjoy reading it was a cartoon book, which is short and simple, fun and about Spanish. Something to do with tomatoes festival in Spain. Ah that book is fun but i have forgotten the name, sorry. Thats it all about, i wanted to write more but im distracted by other stuff. Totally lost my idea.

STUPID

2010-08-17T19:38:00.000+08:00

It is stupid to get angry at something that you think is matter but the other just doesnt realised a thing.

You waste your time and kill your cells by giving the fucking damn.

Rage, rage, rage. what a horrible feeling.

PM

2010-08-17T18:13:00.004+08:00

Im starting to read again! I was reading "how to think like a great graphic designer" which has 249 pages. There was a number of books given by my Horticulture lecturer for us to refer to, well i picked to read this ebook first because of the captivating title.

Besides, i found out that my room is the perfect spot for people watching activity. As you didnt know, my room is facing directly to the walkway, anyone walking in and out i see, if my curtain is open. Though, sometimes it kind of annoying listening to the heavy footsteps made by people and their scary laughters and blah blah chit chatting noise. Since it is the Ramahdan month, most of us, non Muslims are stocking up our food closet, not that we have a closet for food, but thats what running pass my brain. Hmm bread is really important to us, it fills our stomach when we have no other choices of food out there. Cafeteria has been selling the same old dishes, everyday, ever since years ago. It bores me when i think about that.

I just filled my stomach with Campbelli's instant soup and a few Chipsmore cookies. I had a good sleep in the afternoon. I like it when lecturer dismiss the class earlier. I like it when im about to dry laundry and there is the sunny sky! I like to stare outside my window to see the rain pours down. Here, i get to see the rain directly from where i seated. There was a thunder growling through the sky and a person was closing her ears to filter the volume. I need to get something comfy for my chair because i need to sit on it for hours and it is killing my butt. My butt is suffocating! I abhor sitting for a long period, thats why i never interested in becoming a clerk who needs to be seated for hours.

I guess i need to get back to my reading. I still have a number of assignments to finish, but i have no intention in doing them at the moment. I was having the gloomy evening mood again.

ROOM

2010-08-14T16:55:00.000+08:00

Im bored after doing my work.
Im sitting in front of my table, i thought of eating.
Im looking at the food.
Im eating.
Im going to gain weight!
Im hating stuck in my room, doing work, on saturday!
Im thinking nonsense.
Im not happy.
Im going out to get my breath!
Im doing nothing.

Dynamite

2010-08-09T14:38:00.002+08:00

I dont feel that it is right, not sure whether it is wrong.

Im speechless!!

What I can do about it, is say nothing =)

PS: the title is a title of a song, by Taio Cruz which I woke up with that song stucked in my mind this morning. Greatt!

So called Muchness

2010-08-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

So Jaslyne Joon wanted me to update my blog, she missed the MUCHNESS which i do not understand what is that. Im doing drafting for my assignment tomorrow, about shapes. Oh im currently blogging in my room, I borrowed Lily's maxis broadband! It's super convenient and easy, me like it. No need to walk to the studio which is 5 mins walk away, in the dark, on the quiet street in the campus. I went to Tebrau City Mall with my friends today, we took taxi which cost us a fortune. We kind of swear that we will not go there by taxi anymore except emergency, which means we will probably go there if there is somebody kind to drive us there or by any chance there's free transportation. We watched Salt! The lady starring by Angelina Jolie, is very brave and smart and awesome! Super spy she is. Well i spent a lot on food today, i was supposed to save money you see cause i spend like flowing water. PHUSH! Gone fly kabumm the end.

I need books! Story books! Im rotting.

Dot

2010-07-26T23:22:00.003+08:00

This is misery. And i dont want to sleep it away.

So much to say, but i dont have the energy to write 'em out.

Guess they will be disappear after sleep.

MadHatter

2010-07-25T12:23:00.000+08:00

I like scented body wash nowadays, it cheers me up! My room currently is stinky with the smell of wet laundry which i abhor very much, i need to get an air refresher!! Wardrobe air refresher is not working out properly, not enough of apple scent which suppose to be heavy. Blah! I have no idea why am i writing about this. So far, i have check out a few malls in Johor. The best is Tebrau City Mall, however Sutera Mall has an amazing landscape which wow me, especially the washroom because the project is carried out and designed by Singaporeans. So you know how it

should looks like.

I have a thing for washrooms, clocks and lamp posts. I went into a few deco shops which sell some adorable clocks, intended to get one but it is a little pricey. So much for having many thoughts before making a purchase. Sometimes i doubt about myself, i couldnt make an instant decision even if just ordering food or drinks, of course not talking about choosing a boyfriend or life partner. I often have 2 choices at one time, then i will be having BIG problem to crack my mind to choose either one, which usually takes up a lot of the golden time. At last, making a rush decision which is unsure because time is running out.

Im liking my studio assignments because it gives me chance to express whats running wild in my mind. Now i have the chance and excuse to doodle some crazy nonsense which entertains me.

Hopefully this course is my cup of coffee. Speaking of coffee, I havent take a sip of Starbucks drinks for 3 weeks already. I miss Starbucks like hell, couldnt find the alike thinkers here. Nescafe isnt giving me the satisfaction, though it is kicking my every day. Trying to cut down the intake of caffiene because im afraid that it will decrease my state of memory, which i already having problem to memorize certain stuff. Thinking about the plants scientific names that im going to gallop in my brain in the future simply gives me fear. I seriously need somebody

to speak English with me here, or else my language is going to slack down and become unefficient. I dont give a damn of trying to speaking Malay unless it is really really neccessary.

I must approach people around me with a smile on my face. Teehee, convince myself to feel good and be friendly.

Latest.

2010-07-20T11:37:00.000+08:00

Best thing that ever happen ever since i come to Johor is the trip to KL =)

Im looking forward for anything much interesting to happen. Life has been miserable, and I wish that misery could end as soon as possible. Maybe it's up to me whether things will work out or not. To be continued...

FRAZY

2010-06-30T02:15:00.003+08:00

I dont know why i keep staring at this picture, i know this is me. You may sense some self obsession over here. BUT i really do not understand why i find it so nice to stare.

I LIKE THE COLOUR! I LIKE THE WHOLE THING.

Narcissistic much.

I suppose that caramel latte and 'Chitty Chitty Bang Bang' are the initiator of my adrenaline rush tonight. I couldnt understand korean songs, but the tones are so good to listen. Right, im leaving Penang on this saturday. Definately missing my friends already!! I wonder do they miss me too? I hope that I still remember them all the time and they do the same way too! Anyway i was much depress because i was sleepy. NOW im awake as a horse. GO espanol !!!

BYE!

2010-06-30T00:57:00.003+08:00

I earn my own money, i spend my own money. I feel so independent now =D However, the money keep flowing away, i think i need a proper management for my finance. Control myself!

Im depress now!

Most probably because of im lack of rest last night, had 5hours sleep only. Few more days will be 3 months im working in Starbucks, but i stopped officially today! I expect something different to happen, ended up with disappointment! SAD ENDING. Anyway, thanks Tana for giving me a Starbucks cup! =D

LOL

2010-06-21T04:00:00.001+08:00

IM LAUGHING AT MY PREVIOUS POST!

Im officially having my very own moment. I need someone to laugh with me right now! HAHAHAHAHA caramel latte really lighten up my night. I think i should get some sleep now, im going hiking in 4 hours time!!! One more fact, I dislike formal wear. Why we should wear those in the university? Cant we just wear the casuals and learn things? GRRR!!! Why everyone is sleeping so early tonight? I know i know, because tomorrow is monday. It is working day, schooling day, and a blue day.

Im so COOL!

2010-06-21T03:43:00.004+08:00

Well, Im just a lady who sometimes really lazy to dress up myself and draw my face like a clown. Wear the colour which aint belongs to your pupils, pucker up your lips, snap! Become the one who you think is so fabulous but in fact, it is not you. THIS IS NOT OK.

Im thinking randomly now, ideas have been flowing like water. SO EXCITING! well i just think that colour lens is a beautiful amazing creation. But i feel sorry for the natural colour of your eyes cause God gave you them which is extremely special and only meant for you, however you feel ungrateful and apparently change yourself. Imagine a place with everyone without make up, wear the clothes which is most comfortable to them, would be a heaven. Although sometimes i keep whining about this and that, i still feel thankful for being me. SO inspiring right? Some of you must be thinking, this girl is so vain that she thinks she is so cool with her own way, if you happened to be a person who hate me. Well i dont really care, because im so cool! HAHAHAHA if so you dont know me, i write this kind of stuff when im having adrenaline rush. FUCKING AWESOME!!

Add on: i never fancy people addressing someone as BITCH, especially to me. Even though you think it is just a plain greeting or joke. FOR ME? huge mistake, ima get furious.

Remember Me

2010-06-15T00:58:00.004+08:00

A heartfelt drama.

Irrelevant start, unexpected ending, a lesson to learn.

A nightmare

2010-06-13T15:28:00.003+08:00

I dreamed about you last night, it happened to be a nightmare. You are a psycho stalker who insist not to leave. Consequence of the dream is that, im too afraid to even greet you now.

Somehow the dream affects the reality.

Spooky.

Paul Frank watches!

2010-06-13T15:15:00.002+08:00

Took these from the official websit of Paul Frank, seriously they are so pretty!

lovelovelove

Eenie Meenie

2010-06-11T01:34:00.003+08:00

I saw many polices!

Having supper in a coffee house around the corner of my house. HAHAHA!

Well i still cannot think of any reasons why are you treating your friend like this? Unless you're simply using him/her as a tool. A tool to help you through the thicks and thins, then you dispose him/her. How mean!! Shouldnt have believe you in a way.

Listen

2010-06-09T04:16:00.003+08:00

really, im not fooling you and tend to make you feel more insignificant. I just want to be happy friend to you, seriously i cant stand anyone being pessimistic. C'mon i like to cheer you up!

Just gotta write something.

2010-06-08T01:23:00.003+08:00

Now, i find my joy as well as depression at work. Im happy to serve, im depress to dwell with the workload. Standing there and do the washing is simply killing my back. I think i should consume Anlene Concentrate, absorb more calcium to strengthen my bones. Yoko-yoko and Counter pain are my partners now. Im totally addicted to iced greentea soy latte, it is really cooling and yummy!!

Question

2010-06-07T00:55:00.002+08:00

According to somebody, when he does not message or talk to her, it's because he does not have anything to talk to her. So what she have to do to keep a conversation going on?

Meletup!

2010-06-06T16:30:00.005+08:00

Here i am again!

Im very upset because i dont get to do what i like and want right away. Im going to work later! Yet Im desperate to play Ultimate on the field as well. Same goes for tomorrow. What the heck am i doing?! I want to play and sweat my heart out. Grr! I AM PISSED.

My grandma is whining and nagging by herself because her grandkid cant get her what she wanted to eat! I think she is upset too.

I taste my own fruits now, where i used to treat others like that? I taste the bitterness. Even if you're fucking bored and looking for somebody to talk to? Didnt i ever cross your mind? wtf, I need some dramas for my life. I think Im handicapped for some reasons, cause i cant even walk on my own, cant think for my own, cant do it on my own. Oh look at the bright side of my life, they are history. How about present? I doubted everything. Confusing much, i cant read anyone's face or mind.

I didnt know how to bring back the happiness from the past, or make it work again.

Sometimes, things just change.

Chances come and go.

Things happen at the right and certain time, I dont know.

Am i hinting myself to enjoy present? Weird thought.

It's a new beginning

2010-06-06T15:03:00.005+08:00

I dont know why Im here. Well, listening to music in the afternoon alone in the living room, woke up at noon just now simply feel so comfortable. Never had this feeling for so long, everything is so rushy and pushy for the past few months. Hectic! Especially my work, has been putting a lot of stress on myself. Even took away my mood and time for expressing my thoughts. Been talking in a bad tone with my dad yesterday after i came back from the disastrous 7 hours of working, feel awfully guilty for it, havent get to apologize to him. We had a great dinner last night! They wanted me to pay for the meal but i havent got my money in my bag so dad paid for me first. Hah treating my family a meal would made them a day cause they loved to enjoy food =) Anyways, i think i should probably maintain to write at least once every 2 days to keep my mind flow or else it might stucked somewhere in the nerves and the next thing happen is going to be me spamming everyone's facebook wall with "hello!" or "booyaah". It keeps them thinking that im nut or whatsoever emotional, but i enjoy dropping people some random greetings and hopefully they do do this to me sometimes. Im currently reading The Book of Tomorrow, wish i could finish it fast. I only get to read that during my break time when im working, just spend some moments with book to update my vocabulary and indulge myself in my imaginary private space. So it's sunday afternoon now!! And im blah-ing away. Im so thrilled that im going to Langkawi on next week with my old pals. Not to expect too much from it, cause expectations always end up with disappointments. I just need a getaway and fun moment.

I wish I have a cabinet of toys!

2010-06-04T00:38:00.003+08:00

White cabinets with colourful favourite toys!

Rayman the Rabbit

DOMOKUN, my love

A Quickie!

2010-04-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

So now im part of the BIG family now, im supremely thrilled!! Like dreams come true stuff =) The workload is pretty heavy but it all worth it, i've learnt more about coffee knowledge and starbucks experience. I've met a few partners whom are tremendously friendly, and im glad that im working with them. Im sure there are a lot of others out there to be meet!! Well just ignores the bads and appreciates the goods, that's LIFE.

wakeupcloud & wisebread have been very helpful to me for the upcoming course interview that i'll be facing a couple days later. There are posts by people which are extremely inspiring, worth reading and discovering. Meanwhile, that also initiate my urge to update a quickie. Sharing is caring! A confession to made, that is i've been an individualistic person before and now learning to include myself in a team, sharing responsibility and care for others. It was super difficult for myself, even for now too, but im sure i can outdo myself.

Ok! i love my life now, even though it is hectic and inglamourous.

Who give a damn?

Three

2010-04-06T01:08:00.004+08:00

Today is about sleep, music and movie. Love that! I lied on my bed, watching the sky turned from yellow to dark blue through the window, mesmerizing. So i have watched 3 new films today, satisfied my visual sense!

I personally love this movie, the story is intense and the bittersweet attraction between each others, the accent and the costumes, fantastic! Fortunately the movie ended in the best way =)

After watching the movie, it makes me want to read the book. And i cried during the movie, it is so sad!! Sofia(aka Kate in the movie) act so well in the movie, which allure me into the movie so deeply. I can feel my swollen eyes now.

I couldnt understand perfectly what the movie is going on or what it wants to deliver to the audience. I just awfully sympathy to Claireece for what she has to go through the tough life her parents have given to her.

MacBook

2010-04-04T11:12:00.004+08:00

Taking photo using Macbook is awesomely fun =D

II

2010-04-02T02:04:00.003+08:00

So much for trying to sleep before 12. Well it doesnt work out as i expected, hence you see me here writing again. I have cleared my mind, figure out what leads to heartache, after attempting to sleep just now. Maybe my brain was doing well in the first 3 hours, sorting out the problems and when the work is done, im wide awake again. You cant change the habit in a day you know? Like i have been sleeping at the time when the fishmonger is getting ready to start their business. And you cant be totally selfless in one day, giving away everything you have just to make everyone happy or comfortable. But i still think that being a little selfish is what makes me me. There are many questions in my head that needed to be solved, not because that i regretted it to be happened or the chances just flew by but i just need to know why it happened. Im a stupid person therefore i need words to ensure what had happened or yet to be happened. Like i hate to figure out what are you trying to pretend or else you could just tell me straightly that you like to do this and so because blah blah blah. I will accept the fact and prefer to be told with open minded. How i wish people including me could speak out their mind aloud, so that others know. I dont know how to differ it out, but i rather let it go. Feeling better now and will make ways to get the answers for my questions.

E.MO

2010-04-01T03:23:00.005+08:00

Tonight isnt a good night i beckoned, like people are trying hard to laugh and enjoy the moment. Maybe feeling worn out or the time is simply hard to kill. I feel helpless, begging for questions so that i could answer anything, eagerly. Well something is definately wrong with me. I must find someone to bug with!! Sometimes you get annoyed, and you speak out your mind straight to the point, so sharp and precise until it actually hit and break the heart without you realising it at that very moment until few seconds later and you regret. I know a way to not feel worry and bored late night, that's sleep before 12. Actually it is very healthy, mentally and also physically, just like how i pull it off when i was having my exam. Stress-less and enjoyable! But another thing i love about late night is that it is silent, feel like you own the world and the time belongs to you. Peaceful and comfortable. Yet, this is also the weakest and most fragile moment of all time. Mind goes cuckoo easily, inspirations flow like water and also depression is trying to destroy your wall of strength. I think i have friends, but when i scroll down the phone list i see no one to dial to. That's right, because i rarely call. They will be most probably be freak out to see my name blinking on the screen, and say Hey what's up? I should reply, Hey! I call just because i feel like calling. Great that you pick up and have a nice day, bye! Like what do i do usually? Maybe i should try this out some day, just for the sake of life. Hah i feel so pathetic. Anyways im just trying to make this post as long as possible by keep typing what i think instantly. This is fun! i love to do it once in a blue moon, and i think i need to enhance myself and learn more bombastic vocabulary! Man are from Venus, Woman are from Mars. Or the other way round? I have forgotten the title of the book, well im curious about what is written inside the book and perhaps i should grab one and read it. Just for another new thing. Good Charlotte is still the all time favourite, their songs are still rocking my eardrums ever since i was young =) Man, i cursed too much recently, sinful. On the other hand, im also learning to be less self centered. Suddenly, i feel like im growing up. Adult. I need to try out something challenging yet crazy! I need a life!!

How to train your dragon...

2010-04-01T01:51:00.002+08:00

Another animated fantasy film relating to dragons!
Love this movie cause Im a fan to dragons and animated film.

Lyrics

2010-03-31T01:30:00.003+08:00

Oh, cant tell me nothing now
Baby, I know how to fly
Oh, nothing can hold me down
Im gonna touch the sky

I feel it all I feel it all
I feel it all I feel it all
The wings are wide the wings are wide
Wild card inside wild card inside

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 9 or 10

Lifestyle of the rich and the famous
They're always complaining
Always complaining
If money is such a problem
Well they got mansions
Think we should rob them
omg im so in love with this song, my all time favourite i beckoned.

Scream on the top of your lungs if your body's feeling right

And i lost control and totally forgot what else to write!

Oops

2010-03-31T00:44:00.003+08:00

It's funny when you see some women with different colour tone on their face and arm. Like could you at least pick the correct foundation colour?

Oh well, i just think bad about others to make me feel better. Grr i cant stop laughing when i see them. Brouhaha!

SEXY

2010-03-30T23:39:00.003+08:00

Oh! I adore these =)

Something

2010-03-30T23:01:00.001+08:00

hello, im bored.
And i wonder what i can do at the moment.

Very own bokeh

2010-03-23T02:52:00.004+08:00

Wheee! Finally my very own photographs, well gotta keep working on it because some of them are still in the shaky state. I have a thing for feet and slippers, so i personally adore the first photo very much! Even though the lights are blur.

Weekend

2010-03-21T19:40:00.001+08:00

After attending 2 days of taekwondo basics seminar, it changed my view. The ways koreans train their skills are incredibly inspiring. Those tough practices really build up their body structures. They treat taekwondo in their country so differently than we are. Every kick and punch is so precise and hard. BRAVO!

He is a korean with 3rd Dan, and really good in kickings.

Mr. Roy & the koreans.

Us!

I have a sudden urge to learn korean language! But i think i'll stick with my spanish first. Muy cansado, adios!

How can I find you in the sea of strangers?

2010-03-18T16:40:00.003+08:00

More bokeh photography.

Wish I could have a cookie splash take one day =)

New.

2010-03-17T02:38:00.002+08:00

I would love to meet those beautiful eyes very soon.

Monday

2010-03-15T20:00:00.000+08:00

Just paint my nails pink, and learnt a few spanish phrases =)
Hasta luego!

Bokeh love

2010-03-15T19:01:00.002+08:00

I adore his photography, here is another coffee splash from his.

I wish to have the bulky black camera
& take beautiful photos.

Woman

2010-03-14T02:57:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, i just need someone to remind me of how different and special i am. But not anyone's word could make the impact. Jealousy and envious simply suck.

I

2010-03-11T13:55:00.003+08:00

My life is good...
with the people around me.
Being so helpful and funny everytime.
It will be better if I found more meaningful things to work on.
spanish, dance, drawing, editing and etc.

Old.

2010-03-03T02:50:00.006+08:00

te echo de menos

It has been 33days. Should I get emo again?
That seem the be your favourite word.
Repeating the history? The worst it could be.
I thought I've forgotten...
but one glance at the photo flashes back the reminiscences.
Heartache, stupidity and waste.
It's always and have been you, the inspiration.

I wonder how awesome you are,
to influence me back and forth,
to make me write about you.
I seem to notice each and every details about you.
your magnetizing stares when you try to pull one off,
your adoring chuckle, the last time was fun and carefree.
And your pick of shoes? Fascinating.

Perhaps it's the late night rush again,
or else you would not stand a chance to exist in my head.
Until the next time i see you again.

This is another no question post, read it and shut up.
Thank you.

Random photo update.

2010-03-03T01:30:00.001+08:00

I watched New Moon again,
mesmerizing.

I always adore PUMA.

2010-02-27T18:20:00.001+08:00

Puma X Alexander McQueen
Vulcanizo Exotic Women
snake skin print, nice...

I borrowed a couple of Blu Ray movies from Milo. The visual effect is simply awesome!! Ok i begin to like the PS3 a little more. The weather of the island is still boiling, climate change is getting serious i suppose, poor Earth and Earthlings. I have one more week to think about what courses to apply, im being really indecisive, hopefully things will work out right later on. Tokio Hotel's Automatic keep playing in my mind, the line "there's no real love in you..." kinda stucked in my head, super random.

Monopoly Deal!
New game discovered through WeiZhe, this game ends faster than the usual Monopoly board game which takes forever to finish.

There's even a Dogopoly.
It's a board game, interesting much!!

I watched The Proposal and Eragon in a row.

2010-02-24T02:30:00.001+08:00

Sometimes women are getting more ridiculous, like they have problem with any strangers who talk slightly harsh to them thinking that they are awesomely famous and definately attracting the rumours, they pretend to be they dont care but in the other hand, they bitch to their friends or whoever they meet then creating another new space for others to bitch about. Babi. Maybe I shouldnt be so shallow like them to think and talk about anybody else. whatever.

Anyway I have found the answer for my curious question.
Why dogs are afraid of firecracker?
Because they have super sensitive ears!
You just got to google it if you really want to know the facts.

I find reading book on bed before sleeping very pampering. I read Twilight again last night =) Ok I need a fine pretty box to store my books, they're getting yellow and old. Not to forget, Liyan still having my Eclipse and Breaking Dawn, she still owe me a Treasure Box!! Free treat, yum.

Well I think I shouldnt waste my time and energy on any wrong person but myself at the moment. In fact, Im kind of confused and dont even want to bother anymore because all just feel hopeless, for the men that wandering continuously in my head for more than 365days. All the uncertainties and dragging is my very own fault. Maybe I should erase everything and reset. No more history, and just move on. Perhaps I should start by getting a new pair of flip flop =)

And I loathe Streamyx very much, upgrading to 1M is the worst step ever. It turns out to be slower and every tab just keep on loading endlessly. Fuck Streamyx!

Woohoo!

2010-02-22T03:51:00.004+08:00

Perhaps this is the best Chinese New Year i ever have so far, because i enjoyed very much. A lot of going out and laughters.

=D

Whenever I...

2010-02-09T02:50:00.001+08:00

ended a post, there's always another inspiration coming up which makes me continue to write the following. Currently, im attracted to Ultimate right now. Eager to master the ways to throw the disc because looking at the others who managed to throw in the right direction with full force simply initiate the flame in your body. Attending UTC makes my skin become darker due to excessive hours of exposing under the sun, but the satisfaction is there, basics are learnt and rules are understood. Speaking of UTC, i still have a feedback email to respond.

I just killed 3 bloody mosquitoes.
I must stop the nail picking habit right away.
I couldnt upload the HongKong photos as my computer is aged and unable to resize.
My arm is uber itchy because it is bitten by some unknown bug and it's enlarging the territory. Unbearable!
The lifestyle of the rich and the famous is... (fill in the blank)

Another bad habit

2010-02-09T02:02:00.006+08:00

In order not to think of nonsense, i reckon that sleep earlier is a solution =)
It's 2am now, and i start to think again.

Paranoid.
Sleepy.
& I hate mosquitoes, the blood sucker!

Should i make a just-for-fun phone call? I bet that's a little interesting.

Turning red

2010-02-01T17:51:00.003+08:00

The weather is boiling today, tried to cool the house down by splashing water at the yard. Still couldnt stop the sweat from leaving its trails on my forehead.

Bad news, my little red car had an accident caused by anonymous. It's plate is dangling in the air, poor thing. Hopefully it's not done by my foolish and vainglory neighbours who think they're so great and keep riding their oh-so-awesome bike making sound polution everyday, or hon at the ladies and whistling at them as if they havent meet a female before, poor creature hunger for attraction. Not pleasant at all. Lets not let me find out that it is also them who revise what they have learnt in the previous drawing lesson on the door of the red one, or releasing the air of the tire. How childish could they be?

An apple a day

2010-02-01T01:56:00.001+08:00

Back from Hong Kong, fell sick but still managed to leave the house and meet up with friends. Ahh I MISS MY FRIENDS! However i have forgotten to quarantine myself at home for a week after travel from a foreign country, hopefully i dont bring any disease back to my beautiful island. Ever since i came back from traveling or i should say while im traveling, family have been bugging me to look for job and income, they said that i have spent too much and it's time to get working! Well i considered it's also the time for me to wonder what course i should study in the future. Jeez another stage of growing up. Now i have to request some golds from my parents for a seminar as my meter is already pointing Empty. I wondered, why people so care about their age by complaining about their bones, whether their eyes or skins are having wrinkles, or their legs are no longer walk a thousand miles, while an interesting and unpredictable life is awaiting them ahead? Just live life young in your mind and i reckon the number isnt the matter =)

Update from HK

2010-01-17T01:32:00.004+08:00

All right, Im having a good time in Hong Kong though it is just the 3rd day here. Well 10 more days to go! =) My feet are hurt due to too much of walking, but it all worthwhile. The weather is awesome because it's cold! I have no worries here but only for what to eat and what to buy. People over here wear nice clothes and shoes, giving them a Manhattan's glance simply makes me go woot woot. The flight attendances that I met in the airport were utterly pretty, fair and slim, their skin are flawless and glowing! Oh I met a celebrity filming in the airport when I stepped onto this land. The Ultimate players in HK are really good, their throws are precise and they run around the field like flying in the cloud, while I watched them playing at the side, shivering in the cold breeze. LOL! One hesitation is that I didnt manage to tour every single corner of Disneyland yesterday, only three quarter of it. Ocean Park is going to be larger than Disneyland, so hopefully we could walk faster and do things quickly!!

Credits to Joon and her mom for providing me the best accommodation that i could find in HK =D
*edited*

Life fun.

2010-01-09T17:22:00.000+08:00

Im actually doubt that my life is such boring and decided to type 'how to make life more fun' @ Google.

Here are the results.

1. Practice random acts of connection.
2. Make at least one just-for-fun phone call a day.
3. Look upon life as a Mystery School.
4. Have an exciting destination.
5. Rejoice each step of the way.
6. Strive for success - not for perfection.
7. Take a daily mini-vacation.
8. Just say "No".
9. Give yourself a place lift.
10. Share your life experience.

My analysis.
1. Ok, i shall think of some random acts of connection.
2. *looking at my phone list* Hmm.. I think that lady is busy and unavailable because she hasnt reply my message!!
3. I am practicing this. In fact, I even hope for magic and spells to be real so that life is more fun! Fine.. I always relate mystery and magic together. Too much of happily ever after and hocus-pocus.
4. Besides Gurney and Queensbay, name me some exciting destinations.
5. I will end up being a dotty woman by rejoicing too much at each step of the way at the street i walked.
6. What is success?
7. Day dreaming!!
8. Too much "No" in my life which I think it is a reason for my boring life.
9. I dont understand this.
10. But my life is too much of misery.

Silent pain

2010-01-09T15:00:00.004+08:00

It's fortunate because i dont drink, i dont smoke, i dont slit my wrist, i dont take drugs and etc. I understand why some smoke, drink or hurt themselves like nobody's business when they're depressed or stressed. Pain is the way to make yourself feel like you're still alive. Pain makes you forget the problem, it worths even if it's for a while. I dreamed a lot in my sleep since last week. The dreams get freakier by days!
Today is a bad day.

First day of school, not ME.

2010-01-04T18:46:00.000+08:00

Well,
Happy Christmas!
Happy Birthday, to me!
Happy New Year
&
Happy School Reopen!
*cough*

School reopen has never been awesome & happy, according to my history. This is the first time, no, second time i dont have to be excited or depressed over school reopen =D Now im lookin at my brother, packing the books and getting ready to go for tuition. Awwww!

Im sorry.

2009-12-29T01:41:00.003+08:00

Seem like I have lost the shine.
Hello sunny ray, where are you?