Silent pain

It's fortunate because i dont drink, i dont smoke, i dont slit my wrist, i dont take drugs and etc. I understand why some smoke, drink or hurt themselves like nobody's business when they're depressed or stressed. Pain is the way to make yourself feel like you're still alive. Pain makes you forget the problem, it worths even if it's for a while. I dreamed a lot in my sleep since last week. The dreams get freakier by days!
Today is a bad day.