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Tonight isnt a good night i beckoned, like people are trying hard to laugh and enjoy the moment. Maybe feeling worn out or the time is simply hard to kill. I feel helpless, begging for questions so that i could answer anything, eagerly. Well something is definately wrong with me. I must find someone to bug with!! Sometimes you get annoyed, and you speak out your mind straight to the point, so sharp and precise until it actually hit and break the heart without you realising it at that very moment until few seconds later and you regret. I know a way to not feel worry and bored late night, that's sleep before 12. Actually it is very healthy, mentally and also physically, just like how i pull it off when i was having my exam. Stress-less and enjoyable! But another thing i love about late night is that it is silent, feel like you own the world and the time belongs to you. Peaceful and comfortable. Yet, this is also the weakest and most fragile moment of all time. Mind goes cuckoo easily, inspirations flow like water and also depression is trying to destroy your wall of strength. I think i have friends, but when i scroll down the phone list i see no one to dial to. That's right, because i rarely call. They will be most probably be freak out to see my name blinking on the screen, and say Hey what's up? I should reply, Hey! I call just because i feel like calling. Great that you pick up and have a nice day, bye! Like what do i do usually? Maybe i should try this out some day, just for the sake of life. Hah i feel so pathetic. Anyways im just trying to make this post as long as possible by keep typing what i think instantly. This is fun! i love to do it once in a blue moon, and i think i need to enhance myself and learn more bombastic vocabulary! Man are from Venus, Woman are from Mars. Or the other way round? I have forgotten the title of the book, well im curious about what is written inside the book and perhaps i should grab one and read it. Just for another new thing. Good Charlotte is still the all time favourite, their songs are still rocking my eardrums ever since i was young =) Man, i cursed too much recently, sinful. On the other hand, im also learning to be less self centered. Suddenly, i feel like im growing up. Adult. I need to try out something challenging yet crazy! I need a life!!