Monday, November 29, 2010

Very stupid

I guess this is the best company you can find at 4 in the morning. It will not strain its brain or use its energy to think what to reply to you. It will absorb whatever you say silently, not making any noise or fudge against you. Simply delighting. I still think this is the best way to express whats beneath what I want to say.

I thought you could be my best friend, to understand what Im undergoing and giving me comfort. I thought finding somebody to rely on, to trust on is better, guess im wrong. It gives no better but worse, lowering my self esteem and self control. I've weaken myself. This is not i wish for, this is not i want it to be. Maybe i should miss the chance and then only i realised that i did the wrong decision. Regret and it's too late. Maybe i should punish myself in that way. Maybe it is a mistake. Maybe i shouldnt have. Im selfish and i dont want to explain.

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Wing Yern said...

Let go of the past

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Believe it or not, one of the best demotivators is your past. Your past can drag you down before you realize it. Your past can give you a heavy burden on your shoulders.

The good news is it’s a burden you don’t have to carry. Take it off your shoulder and leave it. You might make mistakes in the past. You might disappoint others with what you did. But it’s over. It’s already in the past and there’s nothing you can do about it.

Today is a new day and you have the chance to start again. No matter how bad your past might be, you still have a bright future ahead waiting for you. Just don’t let the burden of the past stop you.