And i lost it, again.

Today is one miserable day,

a day fulled with disappointment and failure.

The hint is so obvious that i couldnt bare my guts to accept the truth,

the truth is i did not push myself hard and further enough.

I tried not to compete with others especially her,

the reason is simple.

Therefore i compete with none but myself,

I know that i am excel than her in most of the things,

except academic, which i know that she really spend real effort in pulling these all together.

Somehow there is always a wall between us,

thick and tall,

undestructable,

invisble yet convincible.

We knew it , we felt it and we ignore it.

Hope seem to be come to an end today,

i really wish to give up.

No one understand, because i never tell.

No one realised, because i never show.

No one cared, because i am nobody.

The time hasnt arrive, so i will not give up.

Miss independent you could say.

However i am a human, an animal with feelings.

I treat you with sincerity and honesty, definately i expect the same from you.

Action speaks louder than words.

SO DO IT, NOT JUST SAY IT !!

I wonder what would happen if i land a straight punch to your face.

I need to learn & live for myself.