I watched The Proposal and Eragon in a row.

Sometimes women are getting more ridiculous, like they have problem with any strangers who talk slightly harsh to them thinking that they are awesomely famous and definately attracting the rumours, they pretend to be they dont care but in the other hand, they bitch to their friends or whoever they meet then creating another new space for others to bitch about. Babi. Maybe I shouldnt be so shallow like them to think and talk about anybody else. whatever.

Anyway I have found the answer for my curious question.
Why dogs are afraid of firecracker?
Because they have super sensitive ears!
You just got to google it if you really want to know the facts.

I find reading book on bed before sleeping very pampering. I read Twilight again last night =) Ok I need a fine pretty box to store my books, they're getting yellow and old. Not to forget, Liyan still having my Eclipse and Breaking Dawn, she still owe me a Treasure Box!! Free treat, yum.

Well I think I shouldnt waste my time and energy on any wrong person but myself at the moment. In fact, Im kind of confused and dont even want to bother anymore because all just feel hopeless, for the men that wandering continuously in my head for more than 365days. All the uncertainties and dragging is my very own fault. Maybe I should erase everything and reset. No more history, and just move on. Perhaps I should start by getting a new pair of flip flop =)

And I loathe Streamyx very much, upgrading to 1M is the worst step ever. It turns out to be slower and every tab just keep on loading endlessly. Fuck Streamyx!

CrushCrushCrush

i can write a longer post no more, i dont know why. maybe because im out of words, or im no longer enthusiastic to write? i loved words, i loved alphabets, i loved number but i abhor calculation. due to my likeness towards number, i even watch the series Numb3rs. i think Charlie is brilliant, he can relates anything to mathematics including anything-you-can-think-of, very logical. im just sucks at calculation so one of my ambition to become a professional accountant was vanished into thin air. imagine how many millions of number you need to observe and make no mistake at all. unfortunately for me, i tend to make mistake even when i am tryin to insert the numbers into my calculator when im pressin the buttons. however im taking physics for stpm, an utterly self-opposing choice because it needs logic which your brain must have the ability to twist and turn after you have learnt a theory and a lot of calculation to do. i didnt realised that until it's too late, now. i regretted, i depressed, i reconsidered and i continued because there's nothing else i could do. it's nearly the time, i simply hope that it passes really fast because i cannot stand it anymore, even though i know that time speeds like lighting. i found out that monday and tuesday passes really slow, but wednesday onwards simply flash by. i keep telling everyone that i love friday! =) which i hope they understand it with their sixth sense, and learn to love friday too! when people try to figure how am i, what kind of person am i, i was wondering as well, because i dont understand myself too. tryin to keep myself as a mystery human yet wanting people to know that im actually already who i am. stupid silly silly boom boom. i want to let people know how i think yet fear to show them. i want them to know how i feel yet fear to let them question me. i hate questions, because i have a lazy mind to think of the answer. everytime when i think 'oh i must talk to that stranger and become friends', i often failed by showing a numb and egoistic expression. it's like a red light for incoming conversation. i feel horribly sorry to those whom i did not spend as much time as i was the last time ever since the last time we had uberly fun together, hopefully you know who you are. sometimes i feel like a fool, because im always tryin to make people around me happy by agree to do this or that but ended up makin myself completely miserable. when everyone are at the highest peak in a party, i just start to step out from my ground state tryin to fit in. that's too late darling! perhaps that's the new world im stepping into. hello get out from your comfort zone and watch the world rolls! when i sees the four walls in my living room after i was back from the crowd, i feel as empty as a plastic bottle. why everytime when im not feeling all right, i tend to write a lot? omg i feel like im doing a confession and this is fucking humiliating. bloodyheck im not feeling optimistic right now, may you read this and then forget about it. i do not expect for anyone's sympathy nor solace. last and most crucial, no questions please! thank you very much. your comprehension is fully appreciated.

Full Moon

I think I've changed.
And I utterly abhor the present me.
Low self esteem, coward, emotional and empty.

Foreign

These pictures are fascinating!
Found them in Flickr, the colours are great, love it.

Have you listen to the songs in my music player? I really fall for Opera 2, thanks Ken for introducing me the song. That is drop dead lovely!! His name is Bumac/Vitas, he looks a lil like human from Mars, but he has a diamond voice! His scream is hypnotizing and irresistable! Because of that, Im tuning into some opera music. Besides that, Im going to have a hectic life so I wouldnt be able to update my humble blog that often. Well I'll blog if I want to, in short stay tune if you still adore missjennytee.blogspot !!

Happy friday people!

I did what I want to do today and it felt great!!

I had my oh-i-have-been-craving-for-so-long CheeseNaan and Teh Ais, studied in library, read some home decor magazine which makes me feel like moving to my apartment so that I could own a private space of mine and went for a jog to detoxified! A productive day but slackish night. Oh, in addition, I have learnt how to be independent! For example, having lunch without company! Last time, I wouldnt go anywhere or do anything without anyone with me, but of course I go to the loo alone. Very dependent and a little of autophobia? But now, my mind grew stronger and tougher. Oh yeah excellent improvement! Although I felt really weird and uncomfortable at the beginning, especially those stares from strangers around who are having the thought like "Why is this girl doing here all alone? Isnt she pathetic because no one cares? Hello alien from whicheverplanet.." and etc. Sickening because I used to think of that in the past!
I felt terrific and Im so sorry. Things have changed. No more harsh and weird thoughts about people =) At least I did not do anything at anyone, but I bet people could sense what are you thinking when you're looking so better hold your thoughts because it radiates. HAHA!


Something that you didnt realise at all time is about to unleash.
Im so looking forward for everyday, because every day is a new day!

Guess who's back?!

I spent my previous weekend at home, sleeping! Totally relaxing, but too bad I wasnt up for spa or any whatever-massage-service. Or else it would be fantastic I reckon!

Suprisingly, Im actually growing sick of coffee, milo and tea. Every sip I had taste the same, I need something different! My mind is thinking of Greentea Frap right now, NO! oh yes, NO!

I have came across a few inspiring video at Youtube, some of them are simply amazing! Especially the one in British Got Talent. Ima sucker for opera singing, because I tend to wet my eyes when I listen to it, touchy-touche. However I still having doubt about the Law of Attraction, I know that it works, many agreed but I just dont know how to get things started, my vision is blur and Im utterly clueless! I keep reminding myself to make a TO-DO list so that I have purpose in my life, in case I suddenly feeling lost in my own life when I wake up in the morning one day. At least, I still know OH WHAT SHOULD I DO? OR WHATS NEXT!
On the other hand, a TO-DO list can make life exciting!

Next, my booklist!
Books to read and to collect after my BIG event.






Seem a lot to read eh?
Hehe but I simply adore these friction!
I'll earn some money to complete my collection since I already done Stephanie Meyer's!
<3

Ok, I need to wash up and study a little bit now.
Been wasting a lot of time surfing the net, Ciao!

Hello my favourite day!

One of Prada's shop in Paris

pretty painting =)

Little update about my film list. I just watched 2 film today, The Colour of Magic and Brokeback Mountain. First movie was all right, I like the props and scene, especially the buildings. Hah love! I always like that kind of stuff. But the story has no ending/very poor ending, which is a minus point. Until then, I just realised that Brokeback Mountain actually is a saddening story, however without the gay part, I dont think that i could understand how they feel. Sounds wrong eh? I wonder how they make out in front of the cameras and people. Very brave! As a conclusion, there aint happy ending. You watch it, you know it.

About my trial exam? So far so bad, for the first 5 papers I dont think I did well, need more practice on the poorer subjects like Physics and Math. Man, they are S kicking! I dont wish to flunk any subjects, so I must to work harder on the upcoming paper. Dangg!! Anyone please save me? Genius? Or Genie?

Thursday Thirst

I watched Twilight again this morning, love love!

Cant wait for New Moon to be released, that's in November. Some people said they expect a more beautiful and perfect Edward Cullen in the movie as they read in the book, but i said Robert played a very good role there. Well, he's not bad looking! I mean everyone have their own different imagination of how Edward Cullen looks like. And I also realised that Stephanie actually shown herself in Twilight! For a few seconds! HAHA... I felt like it's a discovery for me, woohoo. Recently, Penang has also become more like Forks, it rains almost everyday and the sky is gloomy always. Oh! The dark clouds! I actually like this kind of weather, but it makes me lazier due to the cooling effect. Luckily im not having class this week, so i could stuck myself at home enjoying the perfect weather =D Hopefully it doesnt cause flood in my housing area. I abhor exposing myself under the rain, the situation where your body is covered by drizzle of raindrops, half wet and very sticky... Yuck!

I think i need to work out more, my intake is more than my output. Very unhealthy i know =/

140th

Lots of things are going on recently and a few thoughts striked my mind so i wanted to share with you, but i dont have the time to type in details. So here is something quick to read...

I love to watch trees, especially those which are really really tall and old! I like the tall straight trees along the road near Jesselton, i bet they aged for a long period! Amazing... Im excited when i see dark cloud forming and cloud/mist surround the middle of a hill, which i have mentioned in my previous post! The dark cloud gives me the feeling of massive dark power which is about to explode while i like the mystery, spooky feel when i see the hill with mist around.

Contrastly, I abhor horror/murder/bloody movies.

Oh i have finally archived my 1st Dan in Taekwondo! Like after 6years, thats long. Can you imagine that?! I am now simply delighted because I have complete something once i have started! Of course there is another long journey ahead. Well, I have crossed out 1 from my resolution =D So I've been thinking whether should i attend extra training class during weekdays.

Other than that, Inti has become my study heaven! Well i prefer to study at Level 4 because it is spacious but it always occupied, so Jooney & I have to go to Level 3 cubicle to study. I dont like the cubicles and the place is totally in silence at night! Freaky!

Seriously, i need to put tonnes of effort in my studies!!!!

Can someone keep motivating me so that i dont procrastinate so much?

Ahhhh~ *slap self*

Show you one of my favourites from Flickr!

Oh so beautiful, i like this much...

Sacrifice

One Last Shot

Make your choice!

Im so afraid, to make this choice.

To sacrifice one thing for another isnt my principle,

because i always take both, never give up one.

Now, before it's too late, i suppose it is time to change the way.

For better and no regrets.

I shed my tears as I read those words,

I know they are true, every piece of their golden advice.

They inspired me, I need to be strong.

Just like a soldier, head up, chest up and arms up.

Keep me sane and focus! Ready to fight the war!

=')

Do what you think =)

Look at the clouds, they are awesome!

Im always fascinating by clouds, lights and trees.

I have no idea but they are really attractive.

I feel exciting when i see the dark grey clouds forming before storm, but i hope they remain as clouds but not raindrops because i think storm brings disaster.

••♦••

I can feel my throat started to feel uncomfortable, a sympton?

NO!! I dont want to be sick!

=(

Go away bacteria, virus or whatever-your-name-is. Grr!

zzz

I cant help falling asleep in class!

it's not that I sleep late at the night before, it's not that I dont have enough rest =/

"Miss J, I dont understand why you always so sleepy in class.

what time do you sleep every night? hmm..

what time do you wake up every morning? hmm...

Perhaps you should change the way you breath,

there arent enough oxygen in your body, thats why you feel sleepy.

So maybe you should find a way not to make yourself so sleepy, do something about it."

OH CRAP!

So now i have to learn to breath correctly? Maybe I should, lets google it!

Or listen to some head-banging songs before school? DoomDumDoom, any song?

Awesome!

what the hell is wrong with me?

*slap*

WAKE UP!!

what happen to my 'FAINT'?

It doesnt play!! =(

woohoo!

"It's friday & holiday starts!"

That was my latest facebook shout out. So most of my mid term exam results are out, very disappointing. To cheer myself up, went to Queensbay with Peiyee today. Watched Night at the Museum, like finally! after one week of desperation. hahaha exaggerate aint i? Did a little shopping =D and read a few fab magazine in Borders, enjoyed the day pretty much.

Amy Adams!

She's great, I adore her =)

Felices vacaciones!!

Uh i feel like hitting the club, need loud music very much! Tskk!

PS: not the alcohol =]

One thing is missing, H.

And i lost it, again.

Today is one miserable day,

a day fulled with disappointment and failure.

The hint is so obvious that i couldnt bare my guts to accept the truth,

the truth is i did not push myself hard and further enough.

I tried not to compete with others especially her,

the reason is simple.

Therefore i compete with none but myself,

I know that i am excel than her in most of the things,

except academic, which i know that she really spend real effort in pulling these all together.

Somehow there is always a wall between us,

thick and tall,

undestructable,

invisble yet convincible.

We knew it , we felt it and we ignore it.

Hope seem to be come to an end today,

i really wish to give up.

No one understand, because i never tell.

No one realised, because i never show.

No one cared, because i am nobody.

The time hasnt arrive, so i will not give up.

Miss independent you could say.

However i am a human, an animal with feelings.

I treat you with sincerity and honesty, definately i expect the same from you.

Action speaks louder than words.

SO DO IT, NOT JUST SAY IT !!

I wonder what would happen if i land a straight punch to your face.

I need to learn & live for myself.

Just recharge my mana.

Last night went for a movie with friends, met another group of friends there. We watched the same movie, I Corrupt All Cops =) We all wanted to watch Night at the Museum II but it was full, left only a few bad seatings. After movie, went to chill at Subaidah till very late at night.

Jonathan was the one taking this photo, therefore he is not inside the photo.

LOL!

Momo's superstar!

*point at the right photo*

inside jokes XD

I just knew that my cousin, Jo is engaged at Dubai!! Which means im going to be her bridesmaid when she gets married!

WHEEEEE!

Congratulationsssssss darling! love you <3

End/Start

Mid term exam has ended!

A little relief for me, frankly. However this also means another hardcore journey is upcoming. I need to hold on this 'ohm' until the end of the year =D

Okay so how did i spend my day after exam?

Spent my afternoon watching movie, Igor. I remember i watched it with WenQin and JieYong last time. Heh! I like the graphic, i enjoy cartoon very much. Afterthat i was pretty bored, so decided to call up Angeline and Maggie whether they are home. Plan failed. I was actually very excited about what to do today, somehow things dont happen the way you want it to be. So yea, spent some time doing homeworks. You see... After exam, no hang out no relaxation but homeworks? Amazing! Ok i kept the best part for the last! Here it is, my life starts at night. I went to Redbox, Gurney with a bunch of friends from 9pm to 3am. LOL! Aloha Alvin, ChinHong, Jason, How, Howen, Lance, Mario, Phern, Sandor, Teik and Yang. Venice was suppose to join us but she couldnt make it. We had our dinner there and sing-a-long-with-superb-voice for almost 6 hours. They can sing and rap very well, absolute funny time! I enjoyed everything except being the passive smoker. Grr!

I feel like having DimSum in the morning, but i prefer to sleep till the sun shines on my butt. Heh... Well what's next?

i should have grab the chance =/

Lo siento!

not so lucky day

NO!

im running out of time to do my revision for the exam tomorrow! what the heck! Ok i reckon that is my fault because of my very 'excellence' time management skill. I did a lot of irrelevant stuff in between, wasting a lot of time and procastinate most of the time. Sometimes i just dont have to mood to study. These are a few reasons. Tomorrow will be having General Paper 1 and Physics paper 2, my worst nightmare that i must overcome! Today's tuition was pretty unlucky, something happened and that was sucky, makes me very uncomfortable throughout the 3 hours tutorial =( Skip the unhappy part, im now having my favourite homemade salad happily, enjoying every chew of it. i have bought a bottle of Italian dressing days ago therefore i could made myself salad whenever i want in the future =D

buena suerte!

Holala...

Part II

Today is a fruitful day, because i managed to revise a lot for chemistry subject. Great job! All right, just some encouragement for myself =) So tomorrow is friday! very excited indeed. Hopefully tomorrow is another fruitful day for me. Heh. Oh i have read a book titled 'The Secret'. It is a very inspiring book, recommended to everyone especially those who desire a change in their life.

Read it!

There is another book entitled 'Law of Attraction'.

Fellas must grab a chance to read it if possible.

Note: Mission H part II have just started.

BANG!

Should i, or Shouldnt i?

That was very weird, because i dreamt about you last night. Practically it makes me restless. Perhaps it is just another fantasy, i am the one who is oversensitive. As man grow older, they tend to worry a lot about the consequences and become indecisive at times. They are conquered by fear, no longer free as a bird. When you are a child, you believe you can be anything you want to be, go wherever you want to go. There are no limits. You expect the unexpected. You believe in magic. Then you grow older and that. innocence is shattered. THe reailty of life gets in the way and you are hit by the realisation that you cannot be all you wanted to be, that you just might have to settle a little bit less.

I do believe in magic ever since i was a child. I know that the magician's tricks arent real, they are simply illusion or some are just a lie. Yet i was amazed and amused by that. As i am reaching another stage of my life, adulthood, i knew that i have changed. I became more coward, dare not speak out loud and i am afraid. I seldom receive rejection, hence i am particularly weak in this.

I enjoy the chase, but not the fruit. I enjoythe company, but not the commitment.

Now it's my turn.

Lets have it light,

how am i going to start a conversation?

it's near!

Ms. Sore Throat just left the house,

here comes Mr. Flu for a visit.

Awwww man!

hachooooo!

• ♦ • ♦ • ♦ •

Today's Physic lesson was interesting, we had an outdoor lesson. We brought all the materials to the garden and carried out some trials, for us to be more understand about lights and lens. The weather was cooling, not too hot but just nice. I like blowing bubbles! It's fun looking at the bubbles surrounding you. Oh you'll find out after a period, a bubble which can hold still and not break into the air will eventually turn from rainbow colour to colourless under sunlight. Then, we did another experiment by using biconvex lens. It refracts an object (a moving or colourful object would be better) invertly onto a white paper, and the image capture on the paper is exactly like those moving images on the newspaper in Harry Potter movie. They move! if your object is a moving thing of course. I was very excited looking at the moving image, they are real.

I like doing all these experiments and trials but i despise doing calculation. I sucks in calculation.