Im so COOL!

Well, Im just a lady who sometimes really lazy to dress up myself and draw my face like a clown. Wear the colour which aint belongs to your pupils, pucker up your lips, snap! Become the one who you think is so fabulous but in fact, it is not you. THIS IS NOT OK.

Im thinking randomly now, ideas have been flowing like water. SO EXCITING! well i just think that colour lens is a beautiful amazing creation. But i feel sorry for the natural colour of your eyes cause God gave you them which is extremely special and only meant for you, however you feel ungrateful and apparently change yourself. Imagine a place with everyone without make up, wear the clothes which is most comfortable to them, would be a heaven. Although sometimes i keep whining about this and that, i still feel thankful for being me. SO inspiring right? Some of you must be thinking, this girl is so vain that she thinks she is so cool with her own way, if you happened to be a person who hate me. Well i dont really care, because im so cool! HAHAHAHA if so you dont know me, i write this kind of stuff when im having adrenaline rush. FUCKING AWESOME!!

Add on: i never fancy people addressing someone as BITCH, especially to me. Even though you think it is just a plain greeting or joke. FOR ME? huge mistake, ima get furious.

Whenever I...

ended a post, there's always another inspiration coming up which makes me continue to write the following. Currently, im attracted to Ultimate right now. Eager to master the ways to throw the disc because looking at the others who managed to throw in the right direction with full force simply initiate the flame in your body. Attending UTC makes my skin become darker due to excessive hours of exposing under the sun, but the satisfaction is there, basics are learnt and rules are understood. Speaking of UTC, i still have a feedback email to respond.


I just killed 3 bloody mosquitoes.
I must stop the nail picking habit right away.
I couldnt upload the HongKong photos as my computer is aged and unable to resize.
My arm is uber itchy because it is bitten by some unknown bug and it's enlarging the territory. Unbearable!
The lifestyle of the rich and the famous is... (fill in the blank)

Boohuu

im like a walking mummy for the whole day,
from the room, to the hall,
from kitchen to the yard.
nothing accomplished, time is wasted.
im feelingless, mindless and thoughtless.


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i want Kalor, Angelooo and Ninja!!!

Blurp*

First, I dont know what happened to myself recently but there were a lot of tears and devastating thoughts going on. Exam pressure maybe?? Urgh I totally abhor it, year 2009 has been the worst year ever. I think I sucks in handling my own pressure. Second, picture that year 2012 is going to be last year of everyone, well what are you going to do? Do or say something that you'll never ever do? This actually triggers my mind to think of what I have not done. I really want to do something, or anything but I couldnt figure out what. It is very disturbin' when you yourself actually do not know what is your mind thinking. It feels like there is an explosion happen every few minutes, utterly uncomfortable. Third, I hate to interrupt friends when I know that they're having their time at some place while Im here in need of support/prayers terribly desperately but I couldnt bear to just call in and break down. Because I feel that they would 'uh oh...' and thinkin what to do or what to say, practically just stand still and wonderin HOW?! There isnt much they could do immediately. Would they let down the thing they're doing? Would they'll drive thru and buy a HappyMeal for you and make you smile again? Would they try to say something bright and encouraging which works? Or would they just chicken out and say 'Oh i`ll call you back' then no voice is heard. I had a situation before that, in fact not only once, there were a few times that I had outspoken my problems to you, then you simply threw a oh-it-doesnt-matter comment at me and Ciao! Like you have nothing to do with it, maybe you're right, it got nothing to do with you because that was my problem. Ohya very nice of you then when you ever considered we are good friends and using the phrase 'sharing is caring'. After the disaster was over, you gradually concerned and tryin to dig out what happened to me. Pretending like you care, but guess what? You are no longer in my list of emergency. I reckon that you are going to emphatize my fellow good friends because they have to hear my whining and received my silence treatments as if you ever realised that 'Oh she's talking about me'. Label me insane/mad/lunatic lady for speaking like nobody's business here, whatever! Because Im not feeling well right now, plus your issue has been bothering me for a very long time. Should I just confront to you or I just need to keep my mouth shut which you'll never know that you are you while I just got to bear with the unnecessity.

Quick updates

Im extremely excited because the day is coming,
meanwhile scare out of my shit because im not really ready for the questions.
Olalalalalalalaaaa!
Im just not used to having examination in the classroom!
I want the very cooling and bright air conditioned hall!
tsk.
my very good friend is applyin for HKU!
tsktsk.
I found the begininng part of 'Issues' is rather irritating and I have to skip it everytime after 'Hello Seattle' in my iTunes because it runs automatically after the song which is before it.
tsktsktsk.

There's a thing, I feel so weird just thinking about it!
Yikes! Hopefully it's not true.
Prevention is better than cure.

Happt October!

Hello,
I have so much to update, just stay tune.
In need of Adobe Photoshop badly, and the connection went cuckoo.
everything is so slow!!


Goodbye.

currently is in <3 with A Fine Frenzy's
Near To You & Liar Liar.

Big Bright Giggle

Just need something bright to stimulate my sight sense.

Boo!

Currently having sore eyes and mood swing due to 4hours of nap.

My mind isnt function very well right now, I cant do anything beneficial.

I shouldnt sleep that long.

I wish that I have 48hours a day.

Grrr...

Feel like wanna talk to a couple of friends,

to check out hows life and stuff.

Hmm desperado.

I need movie!!!!!

140th

Lots of things are going on recently and a few thoughts striked my mind so i wanted to share with you, but i dont have the time to type in details. So here is something quick to read...

I love to watch trees, especially those which are really really tall and old! I like the tall straight trees along the road near Jesselton, i bet they aged for a long period! Amazing... Im excited when i see dark cloud forming and cloud/mist surround the middle of a hill, which i have mentioned in my previous post! The dark cloud gives me the feeling of massive dark power which is about to explode while i like the mystery, spooky feel when i see the hill with mist around.

Contrastly, I abhor horror/murder/bloody movies.

Oh i have finally archived my 1st Dan in Taekwondo! Like after 6years, thats long. Can you imagine that?! I am now simply delighted because I have complete something once i have started! Of course there is another long journey ahead. Well, I have crossed out 1 from my resolution =D So I've been thinking whether should i attend extra training class during weekdays.

Other than that, Inti has become my study heaven! Well i prefer to study at Level 4 because it is spacious but it always occupied, so Jooney & I have to go to Level 3 cubicle to study. I dont like the cubicles and the place is totally in silence at night! Freaky!

Seriously, i need to put tonnes of effort in my studies!!!!

Can someone keep motivating me so that i dont procrastinate so much?

Ahhhh~ *slap self*

Show you one of my favourites from Flickr!

Oh so beautiful, i like this much...

Sweeeet, not.

DOMO KUN!

how adorable is he? Lying on the candy bed, snoring ahead!

I miss my happy-go-lucky life. tsk!

I wanna have a Domokun and Gloomy bear!!!!

TRASHED!

Im actually bloggin about Pet Society!

my peeka =D

She is a megastar pet!

She is wearing grass & flowers on her head, & wearing a pink reddish royal rob.

She is wearing blue shoes, but in this picture you couldnt notice the blue because it shows white!

Peeka is in the very first room, living room!

This is my current favourite room, full of trashy yet coolish stuff =D

I have no idea that why am i bloggin about this? Thats so weird, and I just realised that the way Im speaking right now is like Im talking to myself.

YIKES!

Spooky, boo!

Listening to 21 Guns by Greenday.

whatanemosong.

2 months left

1) Busted by Pn. Chin for resting my eyes during Physics lesson today.

2) Got Band 5 for my MUET, delighted! Lucky case.

3) I have found my aim! Going to work on it =)

4) I always have weird dreams recently.

5) Back to the 10pm-to-5am routine.

6) I want to get my Black belt in Taekwondo!

S

I realised that I didnt not receive praises and compliments for some time.

People tend to communicate with others, either by teasing or insulting indirectly.

They emphasize on your carelessness, your not-so-excel side.

You might think 'Oh he/she is just kidding, no harm.' or 'Maybe he/she doesnt mean it, really.'

But for a long period, they keep repeating the same old thing.

Not so creative.

You made a mistake, a decision or a suggestion...

They remembered it and talked about it for more than 72 hours.

Sickening, you feel irritated. Ok you might think that it will only last for a while.

But NO! It lasts longer than you expected. You feel offended.

Thats it!

There is the furthest you can stand, he/she has break your limit.

You tell them frankly! Straight to the point, with rage.

You thought they would listen to it.

Unfortunately, they thought that you are just exaggerating a tiny thing, no damn is given.

Well maybe you are not serious enough, not raging enough.

Ok you tried it again and again and again. Failure is what you taste.

You feel callous and unappreciated, being 'humilliate' in this way.

I just need something sweet and nice.

Mask

A clown,

who appears to be fun and jovial all the time.

But you wouldnt know what he feels behind the make up, hidden.

Behind a mask where Lies are not awared,

Truths are not found.

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I feel like Im a stupid fool,

I dont think that you will understand it.

something

I believe that every obstacle I face, will make me a stronger & tougher person.

I have make a promise to myself that I will not bring misery to the people I love.

I cant wait for the time to arrive, at the meanwhile it scares the hell out of me.

I do long for a guardian angle, wonder where is he/she?

aftermath of 3 hours nap,

emotional downturn.

that sucks.

*****

Response to Joon's post:

Im glad that my presence have bring happiness to your day. I treasured your company as well, and yeah we shall make it through the tough days, in fact 100+ days more. Good luck J!

oh, Im stuck with this sweet stuff recently.

marshmallow!

smile

i like these pretties =)

thoughts

new addition to my keychain collection =)

♥

7 wonders in my mind

• Where to find my guts, my courage?

• Am I going to do well in my exam?

• What am I going to be in the future?

• When will I find my Mr.Happy? =D

• Is there any girl in his mind? hmm...

• Do they still remember me?

• When is my next Greentea Frappuccino? =]

Im addicted to peanut butter on bread

& ze' coffee days are back!

fcuk start

school reopened, love and abhor the timetable.

Good news: Get to go home earlier on thursday and friday! =D

Bad news: Im going to get sick by looking at the same teacher for hours =/

so much of unfinished homeworks to be done, my bad!

24 hours is simply not enough to me

&

dear friends, dont ask me out often!

help me to focus. i would be very very very grateful =)

late night post

un

my plan to Cameron Highland is failed! Dad doesnt want to stay at the Bala's Holiday Chalet which is still vacancy and kinda pricey, moreover he said that it's going to be pack up there. So my holiday trip is down!

dos

my brother has extended his KL trip one more day.

I wonder is he going to get me something? Heh...

tres

I found my tuition mates who were sitting behind me just now are interesting, i sort of eavesdropping of what they said because we were so near. PS: they talked a lot.

cuatro

im still waiting but no longer waiting =)

cinco

tonight considered the best night i ever have since last month =)

And im about to find out a thing. Shhh!

Jeng!

i just wrote a post that i dare not publish.

*chuckle*

therefore i shall keep that to myself =)

PEACE!

beautiful distraction

it has been a while since i ever feel this way,

the urge to talk to one,

the urge to see one,

the urge to hear one,

the urge to know one.

the last time i did was years back.

i need to stop waiting like a fool in front of the screen,

i always thought it is you when a pop out box appears,

i always thought you are on the line whenever i sign in,

i always thought the first person to greet me is you.

for once again, i have become a fool.

i did not sleep at my usual time because i was waiting for you.

i wanted to talk to you, to know how your day has been, to hear you laugh,

and to know that you are fine.

then i would sleep with a smile carved on my lip.

i have other to busy but you have occupied my mind.

beautiful distraction, my teacher was right about this.

i tried to cut you off my mind but i cant,

i tried to turn off the screen but i cant,

i tried to not to remind me of you but i cant.

i finally found my guts and hit the button.

i was furious that time, here comes my force.

message sent and rescue arrived.

HERO!

however the circumstances would never allow a further step.

i am not greedy, i just need your company.

that's ALL i need to walk through my toughest year.