beautiful distraction

it has been a while since i ever feel this way,

the urge to talk to one,

the urge to see one,

the urge to hear one,

the urge to know one.

the last time i did was years back.

i need to stop waiting like a fool in front of the screen,

i always thought it is you when a pop out box appears,

i always thought you are on the line whenever i sign in,

i always thought the first person to greet me is you.

for once again, i have become a fool.

i did not sleep at my usual time because i was waiting for you.

i wanted to talk to you, to know how your day has been, to hear you laugh,

and to know that you are fine.

then i would sleep with a smile carved on my lip.

i have other to busy but you have occupied my mind.

beautiful distraction, my teacher was right about this.

i tried to cut you off my mind but i cant,

i tried to turn off the screen but i cant,

i tried to not to remind me of you but i cant.

i finally found my guts and hit the button.

i was furious that time, here comes my force.

message sent and rescue arrived.

HERO!

however the circumstances would never allow a further step.

i am not greedy, i just need your company.

that's ALL i need to walk through my toughest year.