II

So much for trying to sleep before 12. Well it doesnt work out as i expected, hence you see me here writing again. I have cleared my mind, figure out what leads to heartache, after attempting to sleep just now. Maybe my brain was doing well in the first 3 hours, sorting out the problems and when the work is done, im wide awake again. You cant change the habit in a day you know? Like i have been sleeping at the time when the fishmonger is getting ready to start their business. And you cant be totally selfless in one day, giving away everything you have just to make everyone happy or comfortable. But i still think that being a little selfish is what makes me me. There are many questions in my head that needed to be solved, not because that i regretted it to be happened or the chances just flew by but i just need to know why it happened. Im a stupid person therefore i need words to ensure what had happened or yet to be happened. Like i hate to figure out what are you trying to pretend or else you could just tell me straightly that you like to do this and so because blah blah blah. I will accept the fact and prefer to be told with open minded. How i wish people including me could speak out their mind aloud, so that others know. I dont know how to differ it out, but i rather let it go. Feeling better now and will make ways to get the answers for my questions.